Anger Therapy
When you're terrified of your own rage
It comes out of nowhere. Someone says something minor and suddenly you're flooding with rage. You snap at people you love. You punch walls, break things, say words you can't take back. Afterwards you're horrified by what you've become.
Or maybe you don't explode. Maybe you swallow it down, keep it locked tight, smile through gritted teeth. But it's there underneath everything, this simmering fury that never quite goes away. You're exhausted from holding it in.
Most anger management focuses on control: count to ten, walk away, breathe deeply. These might stop you destroying relationships in the moment, but they don't touch why the anger's there in the first place.
Anger is usually a secondary emotion. Underneath it there's something else - hurt, shame, powerlessness, fear. The rage is what you can feel instead of the thing that's actually unbearable.
Maybe you learned early that anger was the only acceptable feeling. That sadness was weakness, fear was shameful, need was pathetic. So everything got channelled into rage because at least rage felt powerful.
Or maybe the opposite: anger was so dangerous in your house that you learned to suppress it completely. Now it builds and builds until it explodes or turns inward into depression.
Psychodynamic therapy doesn't treat anger as a behaviour to manage. It asks what the anger is protecting you from feeling, and why those feelings became so dangerous in the first place.
We meet weekly or twice-weekly and create space for the anger to exist without it destroying things. Not suppressing it, not acting on it, just letting it be there and understanding it.
You'll notice what triggers it. Often it's not really about the traffic or your partner loading the dishwasher wrong. It's about feeling unheard, dismissed, powerless, unseen - the same feelings that were intolerable when you were young.
We'll also pay attention to what's underneath. When you can access the hurt or fear or shame that the anger's covering, something shifts. The rage loses its grip because you're finally feeling what actually needs to be felt.
This work is slow. You can't rush the process of learning to tolerate vulnerability. But over time, you might find the anger becoming less overwhelming, less constant, less terrifying.